I like to be in control of every aspect of my life. It’s almost as if I feel the need to be in control. When I cannot be in control of a situation, I do my best to try and gain control or to work with the situation as much as possible.
I went sledding yesterday. Basically the first time I’ve ever been sledding. I was terrified to go. You know why? Not because I thought I would hurt myself (which I didn’t btw), not because I was afraid to look like an idiot (I probably did), and not because I lacked faith in the sled. I was terrified because once i released the pressure at the top of the hill, i had no control. Absolutely none. The first time down, I went with someone else and it was fun. As I continued to go down the hill by myself and with others, I had a blast! Each and every time, terrified to let go of my pressure at the top and start going down that hill. Every time, once I let go, I felt pure joy and happiness. It was as if my fear ran away and hid and I had conquered the situation because I let go.
I applied this to my every day life. I need to just let go. Let go of everything. I need to stop trying to control everything in my life. I need to let go and let God take control. Something as fun as sledding taught me this lesson—I like getting lessons the easy way.
On a side note, I am extremely grateful for my friends here! You are all awesome and I love all of you guys!
I do not understand. This week, I was told that I am too caring, too concerned, too trusting, and too loving. I just don’t get it. How can you have “too much” of any of those things? Maybe you can, but I don’t get it. If you need me, I’m there for you. I would expect you to do the same for me. So if you call me and you need me are you expecting me to say “ehh I’m busy, I can’t.”? because, if i called you and I needed you and you did that to me, I would probably be rethinking how good our friendship is. And why judge someone for anything any ways? I dunno.
Really? Why am I being judged because I disagree with a homosexual lifestyle? The amount of intolerance from people who demand tolerance is incredible. Let me explain: I have nothing against gay people. I am not a homophobe. My problem is that homosexuality is a sin. 1 Corinthians 6 explains it all really well. Sexual sins are sins against our own bodies. So not only do I stand against homosexuality, I also stand against premarital sex and other sexual acts outside of marriage. These are indeed sins like many other things. Ya know, I’m also against lying and cheating and disrespect and many other things. I sin too and I am not happy with myself when I do. Just because I stand against something doesn’t mean that I judge a person for this sin. We all have struggles.
OH MY LANTA!
Everything is finally starting to fall into place and there are 2 things that are just making me completely crazy! but everything is falling into place and I can’t believe it! but I love it! :)
Last night, I read a headline that really ticked me off! One of our starting basketball players was arrested for drug trafficking. I was maybe a little mad because this happened a little over 24 hours before our last game of the season and that game just happens to be against our rivals and this player is our most irreplaceable player and he is really good. i was more angry because there are so many kids that look up to him. There are so many college students and adults that look up to him. As I sit at the games I hear so many people say, “Yes! Abreu is in! He is not only a good player! He has a good character! I want to be just like him when I grow up!” Or I hear parents say “I want my kids to be just like him.” Often we think we think we know someone off of the court just because of awesome they are on the court and how good their character appears to be on the court. We think that we really know someone—but we don’t. Any ways, in my anger, God hit me with a truck! He was like “Lizeth, you have really screwed up before and had a ton of people angry at you (okay, I’ve never screwed up on his level because I have never had that opportunity because I’m not as “famous” as he is) before, you know that feeling of desperation and that feeling of lost hope. How about instead of being one of those angry people, you channel that anger into prayer. He could really use some serious prayer right now. He is in pretty deep and he needs help, he needs me.” God really hit me. And as I was sitting there praying for him, I just began to weep. Not cry, weep. I was sobbing uncontrollably. It was almost as if I could feel Abreu’s desperation and pain. I could feel all of this sorrow and I could feel all of this pressure and I don’t know, it really reminded me that some times, instead of being angry with everyone and everything, we should maybe just pray for them—especially when we don’t really know them. Like, I don’t know this guy! He’s just on the basketball team!
This quote is one of the ones that really just gets me goat. So many people are like, “yeah, this quote is so awesome! let’s repin this, and quote this, and use this every where!” Really, let’s just think about this for a second. Does this quote honestly make any sense? I am 100% sure that every single relationship has to work both ways. It is NEVER just about the other person making an effort. You better keep a place in your heart for those that are important to you! Perhaps if there are problems in your relationship, you ought to check and see if you have been trying hard enough since relationships are 2 way streets-give and take-never just take which is what this quote is implying! Maybe they’ve made an effort for so long, but have gotten tired of being rejected by you. So just think about that. You gotta love people. And as a christian, some relationships that we have are definitely all give—just as Christ has done for us. Just saying.
When did all of this madness become my life?
I don’t know when all of this happened, but I’ve gotten in pretty deep and I need help. I don’t even recognize this as myself. Maybe I don’t need help, maybe I like who I have become, but it feels so strange and so far from who I used to be even just last semester. I think I know when it changed, and I think God is working and that I’m just along for the ride, but it’s scary and I don’t understand and I don’t like that very often.
"A reader lives 1000 lives…
…before he dies. The man who never reads lives only one.”
This is about the stupidest quote ever! I read occasionally, and yes, it is like living in another world, in a completely different place, being lost in SOMEONE ELSE’S story. But that’s the problem, why would I want to live all of these lives? If I took the time I have in this life to oh say I don’t know, actually live my life, then one life would be more than enough and I wouldn’t have to try and fill some empty void by living vicariously through fictitious characters. Don’t get me wrong, I love to read a good book, but I would honestly rather be with real people, doing real things, living a real life. So go ahead, live 1000 different lives before you die, but me, I’m gonna live mine, and ya know what? I think that’s way better :)
TRAVEL THESE COLORS
So I have decided that the majority of people who do not like traveling have never really traveled before. I mean, really truly traveled. Like if you have never really left with an open mind and soul and spirit-you have not traveled. When you go, you have to go with the mentality that you are going to learn and experience new things. You can’t get in this attitude of rush-rush-rush and hurry-hurry-hurry and stress-stress-stress you have to go and be flexible and relax and enjoy your time. If you don’t get to see everything that you wanted to, get over it! It will be okay, just relax and enjoy what you see. Enjoy the moment and absorb it all soak it in. For me, every time that I go on a trip, I obtain a new perspective on something and that seems to be true for a lot of other people too. So be open to change. Go. Travel. And if you still don’t like it, talk to me please because you really interest me.